Have You Ever.
November 26, 2009Have you ever had a day when it's like you're not really there? Like you're watching yourself doing the things you're doing. Have you ever had a day when nothing seems to be going right? Have you ever felt obligated to smile and laugh for the sake of those around you? You feel like you always have to be the one to bring them up, but if you don't you feel like you're letting them down? Have you ever felt like just fast-forwarding through the day so that you wouldn't have to face your trials? Have you ever just felt like skipping the week? The month? The year? ... Your life? Have you ever just wanted to run away from all your responsibilities? Have you ever wanted just to sit on a cloud and watch, instead of doing it yourself? Have you ever just wanted to fall asleep until the bad stuff was over with, and the sun had finally come out to shine? Have you ever wanted to see GOD's face so that you could ask him why you? Why everything is going wrong for you. Have you ever felt like you have no one to talk to? Have you ever felt betrayed? Alone? Angry? Have you ever felt like no matter how hard you try, there is nothing you can do right, and you can't please the people who are always on your case? Have you ever just wanted to say something to someone's face, but you've been to afraid to? Have you ever felt that if you do the right thing you may end up in trouble? Have you ever had a moment where you just want to take it all back and start over? Have you ever cried because you know you can't??
Posted by Mallory Greenwald.
I'm not perfect, and I'm pretty average. I've been breathing for fourteen years since the fifth of May in the year nineteen ninety-five. I'm one of those girls who wish on 11:11 and I'm kinda OCD. I tend to take things for granted, so everyday I remind myself of what I have. I'm usually always singing, but never in public. I have a bgest friend, and I love her. I could probably write a book on how amazing she is, if I had the determination. I love to paint. I start off with brushes, and usually end up using my hands. I've always wanted to mud wrestle. I love taking pictures, and I'm convinced that mandarin oranges are the best midnight snack. I draw on myself when I'm bored, but it's always the same thing. One of the first things I notice is a person's mouth, so don't be weirded out if I tell you that you have nice teeth. My eyes are usually brown, but they turn green if I cry. Everyone has gone through alot, and no one's situation is the same, so don't judge on what you hear, or see. I love the rain. One of my favorite smells is mud. I make horrible decisions when I'm mad, and I usually regret them. I tend to point my fingers, before I see if my own hands are clean. If you say something mean to me on how I look or act, I'll spend weeks trying to change myself, and I will always think of that statement everytime I see your face. I don't like making people feel bad, and I hate embarrassing people, whether or not it was an accident. I can't make up my mind, so don't ask me for decisions. I love to laugh, and I smile at every opportunity. I correct people's grammar, and it bothers me if someone says 'minus', when they should say 'subtract'. Love is a difficult feeling to explain but such a simple action to complete. So love every chance you get. My heart is no longer in my chest, but it's nine hundred and thirteen miles away. It's being taken care of good there.